Yuki
snow, soundless, at the window side
I am a ghost, said the girl when we met about xxxx before.
When I asked for her name, "I do not have a name." was her answer.
"Since I do not have a name, I am a ghost. You are probably the same." the girl continued.
That is correct.
I am also a ghost.
If a being is able to converse with ghosts, then that being must also be a ghost.
Like I am now.
"Well then, shall we go?"
She said, and I followed.
The girl's steps were so light, she looked completely alive.
"Where will you go?" the girl asked me, as she stopped moving her feet and turned around.
"You can go anywhere. Was there a place you wanted to go to?"
I was lost in thought for a moment.
Where have I gotten to?
What is this place?
Why am I here?
As I stood still, I couldn't help but gaze into the girl's dark eyes.
"Weren't you thinking of going to xxxx?"
The girl had discerned my answer.
When I heard those words, I finally understood what my own role was.
Yes.
I was on my way there.
How could I forget?
For this important matter, I had a reason to live and exist.
It is something I must not forget.
"So, that's that, then."
The girl smiled happily.
I nodded, and expressed my thanks to her.
"Good bye."
The girl disappeared, leaving me by myself.
She had probably returned to her place.
And in the same way, I had to return to my place.
White things were falling from the sky.
Numerous, tiny, fluttering, aqueous crystals.
They fell to the earth and vanished.
It was one of the wonders that filled time and space.
In this world, such wonders were common.
I stood absolutely still.
The passing of time had lost its meaning.
Those wonders of bound cotton continued to fall, one after another.
This shall be my name.
And with that thought, I was a ghost no more.
Current Status : Dying
Thursday, July 31, 2008, 4:40 PM
haven been coming on to upload my daily days in sch because i'm too busy w my work..monday after sch there was no aikido trainin..instead they ran poly 30..i was there was a water girl n recording e ppl who ran everytime...apparently around e 6-7-8 person...there was an extra.............tuesday..crs n drama/acting lessons..no idea y it is in my module as usual..after lesson had to do ideas project for ca3..discuss until 6+ n had to miss aikido trainin..after goin home still had to continue w e project using msn for an online discussion...wednesday..after ideas presentation..had to do games design principle report..to change rules for monopoly..i hav no ideas when my friends asked me so i sms e masses of e aikido club..most of e answers were abt money issues so i had to sms them to forget abt it..den after playtesting e new rules, i rushed off to the aikido clubroom n left my bag there while n went out for lunch with e aiki mates..after lunch we went to e f1 racing briefing n a short interview..i wasn't asked any qns which is thank god..den we returned back to e clubroom to slack n i slept until wee yew or perry dropped something hard on my head n i woke up w a headache..they went to e stadium n did running trainin for poly fifty...i brought my laptop along to do maya spongebob..i couldn't get e mouth to difference in so i gave up...thursday..mornin was illustrator lesson n it was to do our assignment..after tat was games principle..den was scriptwriting lesson..i continued w my maya n illustrator cuz my consultation was over..den haikel smsed me if i wan to go w him to buy icecream..i sms him back tat my lesson ends at 5 n i'm havin consultation..den liling ask me if i wan to buy icecream at mac..so i said yes since its so near..den we walked home all e way from e last gate of e sch across 4 bus stops until we split n i went to take 282 home..den haikel sms me where m i cuz he was waiting at e bridge for me to buy icecream..i was already at e swimming pool bus stop den he was like wat the hell..i was oso wat the hell i did not ask u to wait for me at e bridge n neither did i ask u wait for me to buy icecream..den he was like..u didnt say no..ya but i didnt say yes either???n u didnt even tell me tat ur comin to sch to wait for me either so ur at fault too..den when i reach home he sent a 10 page long sms sayin i always delete his messages n ignoring him n blockin him on sms..just a note..i used to do tat to my secondary sch guys a lot because they always irritate me a lot..n they did not send a 10 page long sms sayin tis n tat either..he was like..watever i don care anymore..well SO DO I.friday..long lesson..after history i accidentally drop my laptop on e ground..WTH..at 3..it was flash test..create jigsaw puzzle n i think i flunked it..cuz mine will autosnap to e grid when u click it once..it sucks tats all i can say..i rush out of e fish tank n went to e aiki clubhouse..den we all went to tiong bahru for dinner..burger king..den i was sitting w e seniors n they keep on de-siaoing me..cuz i got a killer stare n killing aura all e time..den chong hon keep singing songs so i had no choice to laugh because when u see his face..u cant take it at all..hafidz was like shakin my hand when i was tryin to eat my burger n put fries into my mouth..after tat we waited for e 195..den during aiki trainin i got my hakama!!v v v heavy to me..but i cant feel my rolls at all..amazing...den weapon trainin n i kneel down on e wrong number n hit my leg..got a orh cenh..den 7 eleven..i got engrossed in rubics cube..den haikel bought me icecream..i ignored him..den i took bus home n i was so tired..so after bathin i slept...zZzsaturday..today..woke up n intended to go to cut my hair but i waited for half an hour n still not my turn i got pissed so i left e shop..nv goin back there again..den meet up w liling n had icecream at her house..den meet up w jasmine..she broke her shoe..den we went to pek kio cc..missed abel's grading..saw perry n shearn n imran's brown gold grading..i was playin w 3 rubics cube..can do e 1st n 2nd layer but e 3rd apparently i couldnt rmb e steps at all..den went home..took 2 hrs to reach..omg..i could hav finished a lot of things today but for e sake of aikido..no prob eh!now i realised tat there was a dent into e front of my laptop..mayb because of e drop ysd..saw e msg tat liling left me from haikel tat he was so pissed w me because he lost a match..oh yer..i was oso v pissed because my assignments r piling up everyday n i had to do so many things..n aikido trainin oso..could not go for tuesday trainings all e time cuz i hav to rush ideas n my deadlines r all getting closer..in case u didnt notice..i didnt vent my stress on anyone n neither did i sent any rude msgs to anyone either..n u expect me to go buy icecream w u as n when u like..i hav my own life oso n i don like ppl smsin n callin me everyday..n I'M IN DESIGN SCH I HAV A LOT OF ASSIGNMENTS I M NOT LIKE U WHO HAV NO ASSIGNMENTS N CAN GO ANYWHERE U LIKE EVERYDAY..GET IT??!-digimon adventure 02 ep 12-