Yuki
snow, soundless, at the window side
I am a ghost, said the girl when we met about xxxx before.
When I asked for her name, "I do not have a name." was her answer.
"Since I do not have a name, I am a ghost. You are probably the same." the girl continued.
That is correct.
I am also a ghost.
If a being is able to converse with ghosts, then that being must also be a ghost.
Like I am now.
"Well then, shall we go?"
She said, and I followed.
The girl's steps were so light, she looked completely alive.
"Where will you go?" the girl asked me, as she stopped moving her feet and turned around.
"You can go anywhere. Was there a place you wanted to go to?"
I was lost in thought for a moment.
Where have I gotten to?
What is this place?
Why am I here?
As I stood still, I couldn't help but gaze into the girl's dark eyes.
"Weren't you thinking of going to xxxx?"
The girl had discerned my answer.
When I heard those words, I finally understood what my own role was.
Yes.
I was on my way there.
How could I forget?
For this important matter, I had a reason to live and exist.
It is something I must not forget.
"So, that's that, then."
The girl smiled happily.
I nodded, and expressed my thanks to her.
"Good bye."
The girl disappeared, leaving me by myself.
She had probably returned to her place.
And in the same way, I had to return to my place.
White things were falling from the sky.
Numerous, tiny, fluttering, aqueous crystals.
They fell to the earth and vanished.
It was one of the wonders that filled time and space.
In this world, such wonders were common.
I stood absolutely still.
The passing of time had lost its meaning.
Those wonders of bound cotton continued to fall, one after another.
This shall be my name.
And with that thought, I was a ghost no more.
holiday chpt 2 - philosphy
Saturday, August 30, 2008, 9:31 PM
hav u ever wonder before wat life will b like if there r no games in e world?
today i spent a whole day at home playin computer games..cuz...i finally got a break from reports n assignments..n...its FINALLY E REAL HOLIDAYS FOR ME...anyway..tats not e point..if there were no games in e world..i would probably hav taken Digital Media as my course..if there were no games in e world..my cousin would probably be less quiet in my house..if there were no games in e world..i would hav spent my day in boredom..btw..i had to study philosophy in games design..
today early in e mornin i was woken up to clean up my cupboard because my mother bought a new one..den i had to clear out all my 100+ copies of mangas into a box..*grumble*..den i move all clothes into a temporary bag..*grumble X5*..i had to move out 3 cupboards into e living room..*grumble X10*..den i had to tolerate my irritating cousins..*grumble X9999999999-*..n they keep thinkin tat i may steal their sweets n snacks in e middle of e night..-.-..
-paranoid-
holiday chpt 1
Thursday, August 28, 2008, 7:54 PM
*sighs*..now still rushin my flash game proposal..currently doin up my rules..n its suppose to b 40%..>.<..so little rules for 40%..i dono how to score for it..lol..as usual e same ppl came askin me to send them my proposal for reference..how i wish i went for trainin today..but den if i go i no need to finish my report already..nth to do at home these days..except runescape..n reports..*sighs*
-*sighs*-
Yesterday n today
Wednesday, August 27, 2008, 8:10 PM
Yesterday i went to sch for some survey for e library n dialogue session..e director of SD came down n talk to us abt our modules..den we were like complainin abt some modules..den e director n another lecturer??i think were snatchin the mic from ea other to make comments..LOL..n e library part was tat they r goin to build a settlers cafe in front of e library..tat grass patch tat is renovatin now..den e director was sayin to add a computer room for us..so we can play computer games for free there instead of e moberly and addin XBOX n wii inside all tat..AWESOME!!den after tat i went home to get my gi for trainin n went off for dinner w e aiki peeps..waited for thomas at clementi for 30mins cuz i got there early n he reached there late den waited for another 15 mins for e ppl who werent reachin yet..den trainin..den went to drink kopi w sensei even though i drank zapper orange..lol..den we were talkin abt runescape in e MRT..me thomas n H..H is no life apparently..lol..
Today woke up like 12pm..cuz e weather super nice so i slept in..den played runescape..lol..den i realise tat my report isnt done yet!!!oh DIE DIE DIE!!must go rush it now~!!
-flash game proposal 0%-
School.
Monday, August 25, 2008, 10:58 PM
Today mornin woke up n went to sch to print my report..but e printing station was like jam like hell cuz got another course oso printing their reports..i waited for like 1hr n 30 mins until it was finally my turn..good thing i reach e office in time to pass up my report..when i came down e stairs i saw e teacher walkin up..heng ah... haha..den came limpin back home n slept till e night when i finally woke up a few hours ago..sigh..my computer is spoiling soon...die die die..
-dimension open!!-
Leg ache.
Sunday, August 24, 2008, 7:59 PM
Today woke up with my leg aching badly..in e morning i can still walk normally..until e afternoon i had to limp..n my family says its rheumatism...OMG..rheumatism?!cuz its rainin outside badly n all tat..*sighs*..den i spent my day at home doin my report..tmr must go sch to print n bind it even though theres only 3 pages..wth?!i wonder how m i goin to get there...teleport?
-*SHING*-
diarrhoea
12:02 AM
it is currently midnight now..n i'm havin diarrhoea as usual..at least twice every month..no joke..no idea y..detoxification i guess..weak intestine..n still rushin for my HTI report..*sighs*..i wan to sleep but don feel like sleepin..shld just crap out another 200 words and go to bed..
-no comments-
New blogskin.
Saturday, August 23, 2008, 8:51 PM
Finally got a new blogskin!!not my very own anyway..lol..totally hav no time to draw out e background n header for it even though its e holidays..so chose sth out from blogskin.com..haha..now rushin for report again..*sighs*
~HTI n flash game proposal not done~
Today.
Thursday, August 21, 2008, 10:18 AM
Today is my critique session for my board game, now is still 1021..still waiting for my turn..at 1pm.hais..so bored..tis is e first time i feel so bored in e holidays..*sighs*..so end up watchin digimon now n playin runescape..LOL..yesterday liling send me a blood type email..according to the email..i shld be blood group AB...haha..e one w e wierd imagination..
~i'm pretty positive tat i'm AB~
eh...studying?
Monday, August 18, 2008, 10:49 PM
Today i rushed to sch at around 9.45 so tat i will not b late..in the end..hafidz n ruilin were late...LOL...
so we went to e t15 tat aircon studyin room..apparently it doesnt sound like a studyin room cuz it was so noisy..so we went to for breakfast cum lunch at fc2..mac!!i hav no idea y tat girl upsized my drink at all..oh well..we were like sitting there for 1 hour den we went to the library n do our things..i did my extra cards in e library n forgot to print them out..
den i was in no mood to do my report so i played runescape..den liling video call there w me..even though we r beside ea other..LOL..den hafidz started playin pokemon on his psp..ruilin keep looking at me play runescape n watchin fated to love you..e fated to love you hav been cheatin me for a few wks..like goin to end but still nv end..
den we went to mac again..hafidz n ruilin finished their dinner in like................6 mins?!super fast..i was watchin dgrayman on liling's laptop n moving files from my C drive to my D drive cuz hafidz says tat its laggin my hard drives...
n i now realised tat my report is not yet finished yet..LOL..still need more playtesting to do..hais..
~*sighs*~
Get Lost. the 2nd.
12:14 AM
haikel has become the top person on my HATE list. while i was at e blog i was like readin their conversation n haikel was like.."SOMEONE".."she".."tat person".."better den blocking"..oh yeah..even a kid can noe tat he is shootin against me..so i got so pissed off n wrote back to say watever he wans and stop shooting me..he ignored me n i don really mind but i wrote "fuck u" back. apparently i felt better n i deleted him n block him remove from hotmail live contacts as well..i suddenly felt so peaceful..
Olympics.
Sunday, August 17, 2008, 9:32 PM
Today is e finals for e table tennis women olympics. well..Singapore lost to china..but at least we got a silver medal..n e table tennis is exciting..but i was kinda of pek cek currently cuz my mother keeps sayin tat Singapore can nv win china all tat sort of shits..
den i was at e blog..n haikel keeps shootin me..if ur not happy say it out ok?i don like ppl to keep shootin people..den i was askin qns n no one bothered to answer at all..so i got damn pek cek n started my habit of blockin ppl..
~I'M A RUNESCAPE MEMBER!~
HOLIDAYS!
Friday, August 15, 2008, 9:37 PM
TODAY IS FRIDAY!E START OF MY HOLIDAY!!!!!!!YAY!!!!
a recap for tis wk's work...
Monday..drawing lessons as usual..but dominic says: if u wan to listen..just listen..if u do not want to..just play ur games quietly..YEAH...HE'S THE MAN!after tat i continued to do my boardgame prototype..den play cs as usual w my friends..den aikido trainin!!as usual..e hakama was v loose even though i tied it v tight..hais..no idea y..den went home to do hw..was cutting out my mounting board for my illustrator hw..n got abel to help me print out my characters..thank u v muchie..!i'll treat him icecream some day...lol
Tuesday..no crs lesson cuz mdm nora has invigilation to do for another class..means i can sleep in late..haha..den drama lesson..its e last lesson!!kinda sad actually..oh well..i just hope tat i can pass tat module..after tat..i don really rmb wat i did..bleh..v bad memory..ah...i rmb..i went to ica building to take my passport..den came home n sleep..woke up n cut music for my flash movie..cut into 2am plus?
Wednesday..ideas last lesson too..oso pretty sad..were doin flash during e whole lesson..haha..den i did my flash movie till e night...to 2am plus too..sleepless nights everyday..hais
Thursday..pass up flash movie..den illustrator teacher brought her wii to sch..my classmates were playin mario race..lol..den did my journal after lesson till................around 4.30 during scriptwriting..wanted to print out in sch but e sch printer really is budget..colour ink printer spoiled..wth..had to ask abel to print for me again..hais..feel v bad for using so much of his ink..den went home to do my script..good thing tat i finished my journals n script since last holiday..if not i not need to sleep at all..lol..just had to add pictures..
Friday..TODAY!!went to sch to get my journals from abel..den went to studio..everyone else was rushing theirs..den when its printing time..kaizer kinda jam up e sch printer..n ppl cant print out their things as well..lol..good thing abel helped me print already..den during flash..francis shouted at some ppl cuz they used stickman..kinda scary..lol..den went to library to get e things i left in e clubroom from hafidz..lol..they were suppose to b studyin..but dono y kelvin is playin star wars..lol..hafidz refuse to giv me my things..den they went to dinner at 6.40 i had to take care of their things..they say they will come back by 7..so i played dmc4..by e time i finished e 1st mission it was already 7.24..lol..den they say they went to e toilet..zzz..hafidz owe me icecream..so i rushed home..den find out tat theres no one at home..so i went to my aunt's house to borrow my house keys to open e door..
wanted to upload my flash movie but its 52mb so i waited for 1hr until it reaches 46mb n my shitty connection hang up on me so i will not upload it..
tmr had to go back to sch so my friends can playtest my game..
nxt thursday had to come back to do my critique session..
25th august hav to pass up my hti:the way things go report..
29th august hav to pass up my proposal for my flash game..
hais..phew..WEEE
~IT'S FINALLY E HOLIDAYS~
Weekly updates again.
Friday, August 8, 2008, 9:49 PM
eFinally its friday!!End of the week!!Rest time!!N hw rush time!!A recap of tis wk's work..Monday..drawings as usual..after tat was aikido..my hakama was like loose even though i tied it really tight...Tuesday..CRS ca3 nv took place cuz of one person's mistake at tuesday was suppose to b rescheduling our ca3 but he said tat it is e actual day..people were swearing loudly in e studio..as usual..Wed..poly 50..it was fun though i did not join..i was e water girl..Thursday..doin illustrator..finished my 6 characters..Friday..which is today..presentation..think i did badly as usual..ah..who cares..after tat..wan to pon flash lesson..but den today teach important thing..so cannot..
Tmr..haven come yet..so no idea..lol Things to be completed by next wk:1. Clothes on human(need to draw out)2. Illustrator assignment(need to buy mounting board n print out my files)3. Flash game movie. (need to get a blank disc to put)4. Journals(need to add pictures)5. Scriptwriting(need to rephrase some parts of it)6. Illustrator (do up my cards)
short eh?