Yuki
snow, soundless, at the window side
I am a ghost, said the girl when we met about xxxx before.
When I asked for her name, "I do not have a name." was her answer.
"Since I do not have a name, I am a ghost. You are probably the same." the girl continued.
That is correct.
I am also a ghost.
If a being is able to converse with ghosts, then that being must also be a ghost.
Like I am now.
"Well then, shall we go?"
She said, and I followed.
The girl's steps were so light, she looked completely alive.
"Where will you go?" the girl asked me, as she stopped moving her feet and turned around.
"You can go anywhere. Was there a place you wanted to go to?"
I was lost in thought for a moment.
Where have I gotten to?
What is this place?
Why am I here?
As I stood still, I couldn't help but gaze into the girl's dark eyes.
"Weren't you thinking of going to xxxx?"
The girl had discerned my answer.
When I heard those words, I finally understood what my own role was.
Yes.
I was on my way there.
How could I forget?
For this important matter, I had a reason to live and exist.
It is something I must not forget.
"So, that's that, then."
The girl smiled happily.
I nodded, and expressed my thanks to her.
"Good bye."
The girl disappeared, leaving me by myself.
She had probably returned to her place.
And in the same way, I had to return to my place.
White things were falling from the sky.
Numerous, tiny, fluttering, aqueous crystals.
They fell to the earth and vanished.
It was one of the wonders that filled time and space.
In this world, such wonders were common.
I stood absolutely still.
The passing of time had lost its meaning.
Those wonders of bound cotton continued to fall, one after another.
This shall be my name.
And with that thought, I was a ghost no more.
holiday chpt 18 - trash
Tuesday, September 30, 2008, 9:30 AM
iiiiieeeeeuuuuuuuunnn~~~~~~~~~~
one thing good from working behind e scenes in a hotel is tat......u get to SEE E F1 NIGHT RACE LIVE!
isnt it awesome!?!
yesterday after work me n my colleagues went up to e 28th floor to enjoy e exciting race..u get to see more den half e track from e balcony..super nice can?!they were like e size of e tamiya cars when u see from there..den its not like how u get a ticket for a few k just to sit by e grand stand there n watch e f1 cars zoom past for 3 secs??u can see how e cars turn..overtake each other..its kinda of slow when u watch from above but its still v exciting!!!!
i couldnt get any pictures cuz my phone went die just b e race started..-.-..i was super pissed...so i'm waiting for my colleagues to send me pictures n videos of e race..YEAHZ!!
n y do i keep gettin trash abt me winnin from stupid lottery all tat kind of rubbish...-.-..i shld change email..but its kind of tiring to add my contacts back again..
*sighs*
-housekeeping~housekeeping~-
holiday chpt 17 - pictures
Saturday, September 27, 2008, 10:10 PM
pictures..lazy to explain..just see will do...lol..



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iiiiieeeeuuuuuuuunnnn~-
holiday chpt 16 - f1
Friday, September 26, 2008, 8:25 PM
iieeeeeeeuuuuuuuuunnnnnnn~~~~~~
ppphhhiiiiiiiiiiieeeeeeeuuuuuuuuunnnn~~~~~
noe wat r tis sounds?
THEY R E F1 RACING CAR SOUNDS!!!
WOOOTT~~
SUPER COOL~
in Swissotel, there is a racing BMW car in e lobby which i took pictures of..wanted to post them up here but my bluetooth isnt workin well..so i'll post it when its workin fine again..
u can still hear e sound when u r at e 60th floor..amazing isnt it..yeah!~
e ppl workin w me in e hotel were phieeeuuunn-ing excitedly when work is abt to end..lol
SUPER EXCITING EVEN THOUGH E REAL RACE HASNT EVEN BEGAN~
WOOOOOOT~
-ppppphhiieeeuuuuuuuuuuuuuunnn~-
holiday chpt 15 - work
Thursday, September 25, 2008, 8:13 PM
haven been updatin my blog due to work so i'll start from e 1st day of work.
equations i hav learnt from work:
-day 1-
(big shampoo + big shower lotion + big conditioner + 2 bath soap + 2 bath salts)pack tgt + ribbon = big bag
(small shampoo + small shower lotion + small conditioner + 1 bath soap + 2 bath salts)pack tgt + ribbon = small bag
1st day of work i was doin e tying of ribbon job..i had tied at least a few hundred + of ribbons n i m now a trained professional ribbon tier..
-day 2-
(medium yellow towel + small yellow towel)ribbon = small towel set
(big white towel + small white towel)ribbon = big towel set
firstly..let me say sth..their small towel is like our hand towel but it is their face towel..n their medium towel..is our bath towel..but it is their hand towel..n their big towel..is OUR BLANKET..SUPER ULTRA BIG CAN..ITS LIKE TALLER DEN ME..so we pack pack pack pack..den around 1hr b4 our work end..we discovered a faster way to fold e towels..LOL..
-day 3-
magic sponge + water = clean trolleys
me n chris were grped tgt to clean trolleys from e 52th floor to e 63th floor..den while we were cleanin..he was singing e same song over n over again...
-day 4-
i totally forgot wat i did on monday..nvm abt it..
-day 5-
shaving cream + shaver = shaving kit part 1
10k of shaving kits to pack..wat a great job..we finished more den 1/2 of it..
-day 6-
stickers + window = warning
went round e top few floors of e hotel rooms pasting stickers tat says notice for standing at e balcony blah blah..not more den 3 people must b at e balcony at all times..e china guy which me n another girl was attached to was complaining abt it..lol..damn funny..den their china accent was super thick..i couldnt understand 1/2 e words he was saying...but hes a nice guy..in fact..all e hotel people r nice ppl..they r fun n like to joke around..lol
-day 7-
shaving cream + shaver = shaving kit part 2
end up continuing e remaining 5k of shaving kits..finally finished it..
-day 8-
penknife + paper = cut
fast cutting + finger = blood
shaving cream + shaver = shaving kit part 3
tis morning we r told to rushed to cut some papers..1k of them..i ended up cuttin too fast n accidentally slicing off a small piece of my skin..its been bleedin until now..still haven stop yet..i'm goin to faint from overloss of blood soon..i think i lost at least 0.5 litre of blood..hope tat it will stop..
-5 litres of blood left in my body-
holiday chpt 14 - baking part 4
Saturday, September 20, 2008, 10:22 PM
updating tis for ysd..ysd was work from 9-6 as usual..cleanin trolleys from e 52th floor to e 63th level..i partnered w chris n he was singing song e whole time we were cleanin..its entertainmt cuz its kinda boring but he was singing e same verse of e same song e whole time..den clean clean clean clean..END WORK..finally..after 8 hours..after tat me n chris had to rushed off to aikido trainin..for tat 3 stops from city hall to tiong bahru..he was smirkin all e way..-.-..cuz he got like e job w e best tips..-.-..den we had to buy our meals takeaways cuz we were released late from work n everyone else had ate..we reached radin mas cc n we ate our meals..teabreak..like liling says..cuz we were eating slowly..haha..must let e food go down slowly..ya..den after aikido trainin went to 7 eleven as usual to buy drinks..i bought a rubics cube from e 1 dollar machine n i was turnnin it all e way home..haha..
TODAY..was suppose to wake up at 9 so i can meet thomas at 10 at ntuc..but den..i kinda overslept..sorry la..how i noe my alarm like tat..*sobs* *sniffs*..so reached his house at 11..den runescape as usual..lol..watched power rangers..den met liling for lunch..dilly dally to choose wat to eat..den went back to BAKE..OHOHOHOHOHO..result of overdose of bakin activities..laugh whenever u wan..
today we baked strawberry cookie..kinda successful cuz it was neither soft nor soggy..haha..its nice but i don really like e almond taste..i only like e sweet part..lol..kk i'm a kid can..
after tat we did eh..wats tis called again..nvm..its sweet cookie to me..tis is b4 bakin..it kinda screwed up on our 1st tray cuz we hong for too long n we put too much mixture on our tray..it turned out cao ta on e bottom of e cookies..liling kinda liked cao ta cookies for some reasons..no idea y so she bought it home..for e cao ta trays we crafted our names onto e cookies..
somehow i get e feelin tat we crafted our personalities onto e biscuit as well..from e way we crafted our names..lol..e above part was actually chinese characters..柯南..lol..i actually wanted to craft e jap ones as well but e chinese ones came into my head 1st..nvm..no link..
as usual bob appeared n i fed him poison..u see e green green thing i'm holdin?yes tats e poison..n yeah..thomas' bro timothy is havin chicken pox..i hope i don get them cuz i hadnt had them yet when i was young..i hope my barrier is strong enough to prevent them..tats all for today..back to power ranger!!-go go power rangers!~-
holiday chpt 13 - mails
Wednesday, September 17, 2008, 10:14 PM
2nd day of work..n i'm foldin towels..LOL..i think i will go mad sooner or later if i continue doin e same thing for 8 hours..nth much from work except e trip back home..i was takin e mrt den theres tis wierd uncle who was standin in front of me..den he was like leanin on e railin..den he was like staring at every spot in e mrt..n he was tryin to hold e railin at e top of e mrt..he too short den cannot reach but he die oso keep tryin to reach..-.-
oh yer..got an email abt horoscopes from my friend..
SAGITTARIUS - The Happy-Go-Lucky One (Nov 22 - Dec 21) Good-natured optimist. Doesn't want to grow up (Peter Pan Syndrome). In dulges self. Boastful. Likes luxuries and gambling. Social and outgoing. Doesn't like responsibilities. Often fantasizes. Impatient. Fun to be around. Having lots of friends. Flirtatious. Doesn't like rules. Sometimes hypocritical. Dislikes being confined - tight spaces or even tight clothes. Doesn't like being doubted. Beautiful inside and out.
Yes i'm e happy go lucky kind..n i seriously doesnt wan to grow up..as for e rest..no idea..
-Peter Pan Syndrome-
holiday chpt 12 - results
10:14 PM
WTH WTH WTH WTH WTH WTH WTH!!!I GOT 2.688 FOR MY GPA..tsk e sch system..n they only count 3 modules for my course..its no wonder i got so low...-.-..irritating...@!$~!!€!!!!%$#%$&@##!!!!..watever..lol
today is my 1st day of work at swissotel..all i did for e whole day was tying ribbons..nope i'm not lying..u can ask chris abt it..I WAS SERIOUSLY TYING RIBBONS..for e gifts for f1 ppl or sth..den i was nearly choked to death by e smell of e bath salts..gav me a serious bad headache..i was like bored to death by e ribbons...i was like waiting for work to end..den e other ppl tell me tat they wan to work overtime cuz they don wan to come back on sat..i nearly died but i came back to life cuz it means tat i do not need to work on wk ends..ohohohoho..
sorry..1st day of work..a bit seh already..
-GPA 2.6-
holiday chpt 11 - baking part 3
Tuesday, September 16, 2008, 11:30 AM
yesterday e yesterday..my phone conked out on me..when u try to switch on e phone by pressin e on button..it just like light shine through e buttons..den went off after 3 seconds..-.-..so i had to switch to another old phone..tat phone's buttons must press v v v hard..den i press until goin to puke blood..
yesterday..i went to thomas' house..kinda late..cuz i was havin breakfast..den he was like sniffin as usual..everytime i see him he alwasys hav flu..we played runescape den he showed me a video on youtube..suicide circle gory scene..i was like eatin a piece of cake he handed me n e shoe was like.................blood blood blood blood blood.....i nearly puked out wat i ate for breakfast..after tat we played tenchu Z on his XBOX 360..i already saw so much blood yet e way e character kill e enemies oso hav a lot of blood..got e sword piercin into body sound den got a lot of blood..
den we went for lunch..after tat we BAKE~ohohohohoho..at first we bake coconut sth sth..forgot wat its called..there was 3 layers..e top layer was dessicated coconut..e middle layer was jam..e bottom layer was...was...erm..was...all i rmb was theres flour inside..ahahaha..

den e 2nd thing we baked was e cookie..got a v strong cinnamon taste + cocoa powder..we were still bakin it at ard 5pm..-.-..had to rush for aikido trainin~..no choice had to put inside e box when it was hot..

den we rush off to aikido trainin..tot tat we were goin to b late..but when we reach there they were only half way into e warm ups..phew~learnt a few new techniques but den still unable to grasp e feelin..*sighs*..den we took out e cookies tat we baked to let e aikido peeps eat..ahaha..it was a bit soft cuz when we packed into e box it was still quite warm..ahaha..had to explain it a few times to them..-.-..den went to IMM for dinner..haha..den went to popular to walk walk..den went home...snores..ZZzzZ
*pictures were taken from thomas' blog cuz my phone e take photo button cannot press..ZzZZzz*
-do you noe y Singapore has no stars? cuz they're all in ur eyes-
holiday chpt 10 - online sales
Saturday, September 13, 2008, 9:09 PM
just found a website which sells detective conan collectibles..but e prob is..IT ONLY SELLS IN CHINA!!!
SO ANGRY!!
here r some pics of them:

keychains
notepads
earphones-i wan them!!-
holiday chpt 9 - manga n comics
3:29 PM
today i originally wanted to go to thomas' house to BAKE after shoppin w my sis but she took v long to prepare thus i did not go today..sry for tat..=P
so i went shoppin w my sister n my mother n my cousin at imm for some clothes..but my cousin was a complete &!@#$%$^($&^#%@..he is only a primary 3 n he is acting like a bitch n as if he noes everything in e world..while i was playin w e rubics cube at home he keeps sayin he noes how to do it but when i asked him to do it he just swings it around e loop (my rubics cube is e $1 kind from e turn turn turn machine..if u dono nvm..-.-)..n when i was pickin clothes he just follows watever my mother says like tis one look v auntie..tat one is nice..den i had a sudden urge to grab him by e neck n strangle him..(of cuz i didnt do tat..i just lock him by e arm w aikido..)..i think i shld use him as my aikido partner at home to practice all my locks..
den i reach home n started to read the 1st 10 books of TCZ 21(stands for The Celestial Zone 21) which my sis just bought a few days ago..u will nv get bought of it man..it is so interesting..but all i can say is tat e author mayb a little sex-deprived..if u see his drawings u wil understand wat i mean actually..theres are actually 3 series of TCZ..e 1st n 2nd series takes place in e warring times long long long long time ago..its abt a group of young people who possesses certain superhuman powers n uses tat power to fight against e evil forces..when e people's powers r high enough they can cultivate their own spiritual weapons..its super ultra interesting..read it!!!TCZ 21 on e other hand takes place in e present time where a group of human beings with super powers (again) comes to Singapore for a showdown..theres tis insane plot in e story abt an organisation whose goal is to exterminate 70%(or is it 60%?) of e human kind to further increase global warming..mad isnt it..but tis kind of storyline is actually quite new n refreshin..unlike e super powers in TCZ l n TCZ ll..TCZ 21 has many different kind of powers like stopping time..creating a real yet an imaginary dimension..theres oso psychic..superhuman strength..e ability to control electricity all tat..its totally cool~~i wish i had e power to stop time..lol..
-read it-
Thursday, September 11, 2008, 11:49 PM
somehow theres sth inside me tat misses sleepin in e chalet.lol.
holiday chpt 8 - CHALET
10:12 PM
WOO~~just woke up from my neverending sleep at home..CHALET~SO DAMN FUN~
-e 1st day- we went night cycling all e way to changi..i was cyclin w them for e 1st half of e trip..den i went back w e skaters n sebas n benedict back to e chalet..bathe n went to sleep in e room while e 2nd yrs were watchin movie there..den i sleep..n sleep..it was so cold at tat bed..cuz e aircon was directly facing it..at 4 e cycling party went to mac for breakfast..i was still sleepin..i woke up at 8 n went downstairs..e whole house/chalet was dead..lol..everyone was sleepin..i wanted to go back n sleep but den e room upstairs was so cold so i went outside n use my computer..but den i was like feeding e mosquitoes outside e chalet..got around 10+ mosquito bites already..
-e 2nd day- ard 11 thomas came n e rest woke up..me..thomas..perry kevin n zi jing went like for breakfast at white sands while e rest was talkin n playin in e chalet..in e night we had bbq~den sensei came n took photos den i went back upstairs to play pokemon on hafidz' psp..LOL..i nickname e pokemons w e seniors name..den joel was like tryin to poke me if i let him faint in e battle..i used up all e potion because of tat..when we were upstairs in e room..e rest were drinkin downstairs..lol..lets talk abt upstairs 1st..there were hafidz..kevin..me..n thomas..hafidz n kevin was playin e guitar while thomas was tryin to fall asleep while listenin to his itouch..i was playin pokemon..den i got so tired so i just went to sleep..
-e night- in e middle of e night....LOL...e downstairs bunch came to disturb e upstairs bunch..cuz they were drinkin..at 1st sebas came in n hugged thomas..lol..den he fell asleep..thomas tio shock n he couldnt get any sleep..den wee yew came in n woke me up as well..-.-..i was 50% awake so i don rmb wat he said but e others said tat wee yew said "i wan yuping"..yeah..he started tuggin my blanket..lol..den solo n e others had to drag wee yew downstairs so we can still continue to sleep..lol..but den how to sleep...lol..jingyi was like goin to say out a lot of swear words..den sebas was sleepin..chris was oso sleepin somehow..n hafidz was sleepin was well..so only me thomas n jinyi was affected..tried to go back sleepin but den cannot..cuz downstairs was makin a lot of noise..so just lie there n waited until 4+ when hafidz woke up n we went to mac for breakfast..
-e 3rd morning- after tat hafidz jingyi n H went home n e rest who was stil clear minded went to e park to see sunrise..but den a lot of trees were blockin n all we did was to feed e mosquitoes there..den we went back to e chalet..n continue sleepin..lol..everyone was damn shagged..i had diarrhoea..-.-..i was super tired every though i was e one who slept e most in e chalet..well it was extremely fun after all..bonding..haha
-i love sp aikido chalet-
holiday chpt 7 - madness
Tuesday, September 9, 2008, 10:36 AM
now is currently 1036hr 090908..givin a live update of my phone..e motorola one..IT'S ALIVE~MY MOTOROLA PHONE HAS CAME BACK TO LIFE!!let's interview e phone itself..how do u feel?:"erm..a bit faint at e moment but still i'm ok. it's good to b back"..so how did u came back to life?:"i hav absolutely no idea..i guess its because someone pressed e on button.."..nvm me i'm goin mad..
-madness lvl 1.7-
holiday chpt 6 - events
Monday, September 8, 2008, 11:31 AM
Yesterday was e ZQS aikido family day!!nth to b excited abt actually..but it was sth to b tired abt..-.-..woke up early in e mornin to meet thomas n liling at clementi..den my phone conked out on me..-.-..^$&#@*!(!)$*@&$#^&*(..den durin trainin...i tot it was only 1.5hr only..WHO NOES TAT THERE WAS A 2ND SESSION?!?! i was like goin to die already...den i got stomachache..DANG!go to e toilet den hav to take out my hakama..i spent like 1 whole minute tryin to pull out e strings..den i spent another minute tryin to tie it back...-.-...den after trainin was demo..woot~e sensei-s r so cool!!but e harry sensei like to do knee techiniques a lot..den e ZQS performance by our own SP aiki band..v v v nice~den when i reach home..SHAGGGGGGGGGGGGG LIKE HELL....just bathe n went to bed..ZZ
-sp aikido chalet tmr!-
holiday chpt 5 - project
Saturday, September 6, 2008, 12:06 AM
today..woke up at 9.57...check my phone n discovered tat!!!my friends r meetin at 11 in sch...so i prepare prepare to go sch...den got too absorbed in my cousin's rubic cube tat i missed e bus..den went to sch..found out tat e studio wasnt open..so walk walk walk to fc4...den lecturer called n we walk walk walk back to t2..collect our board game prototype..den got a C or D for my grade(teacher did not specify but i think i got a D)...nxt wk goin back to consultation..sians sians...-.-...den went to WCP to design my studio logo..ate there..ahh..its been a long time since i ate Mac..den went home...watch hana yori dango in jap..tat dao ming shi's mother..dono wat to say..-.-..Ah bish X 999999k..shes EVILLLL...den went to aikido trainin~my arm is achin again cuz of e bokken trainin..e he!!ha!!hia!!..ya..tat move..hmm..get it??ya i noe u don..lol..den now is RUNESCAPE..+..HANA YORI DANGO..+..SP AIKIDO BLOG..+..TIS BLOG..OHOHOHOHO..
-multi-taskin lvl 4-
holiday chpt 4 - baking part 2
Wednesday, September 3, 2008, 7:39 PM
today woke up at 8.30!!an achievement!!cuz its e holidays!!!no link sry..lol..den went to NTUC to meet up w thomas n his bro to get some bakin ingredients..some ess..bakin paper..oat..n dono still got wat..den went to his house n RUNESCAPE..lol..den for lunch we went to e hawker center near his house..e one opp tanglin sec..ate..kway chap..den we had to o ya pei ya shom to see who finish e last piece of meat..-.-..den went back to his house to BAKE~lol..(i totally forgot e names of it)..
bake chocolate chip cookie (as it seem to look like to me)..tat broken piece was mine..i broke it off to eat..lol..
den took a random pic of bob..

den we made some asfgan cookie i think..i hav extreme STM..heres a picture of it..n from an photogenic view..

while they r workin hard...

i was....sittin around playin w bob..no pics for tat sry!!
-World of Baking lvl 2-
holiday chpt 3 - baking
Monday, September 1, 2008, 10:55 PM

today i woke up early in e mornin to welcome my new cupboard n bed!!!heres a picture of my cupboard(left side)..the legolas picture is just an add-on by my sister..the ponytail at the bottom right corner is her..inside the cupboard is sensored..so no pictures allowed at e moment..i'll try to get some unsensored pictures tmr..(right side) is my bed!double deck!i'm takin e lower bed though..i'm afraid of fallin onto e ground at night..zz..n below is my view of the bed when i lie down n sleep..i'm oso afraid of my sister fallin down on me but oh well..life is full of fears..
den after tat i went to thomas' house to play runescape!!did a few quests den went for baking in his kitchen...i did e sieve-ing of flour n e mixing of e flour n butter..e main things..-.-..heres e result of my/our hard work!!
e pictures r a bit fuzzy cuz i took them from my phone..haha..so fun..i hav joined into e world of baking~thomas has a v erm..wierd n queer brother who likes to speak in monotone n act like an lao ah pei..(sry for tat..tats e impression he gav me)..lol..den his mother keeps sayin tat thomas is a naughty boy..LOL..
den we went to sch for aikido trainin..did e 31, 13 n 24 for weapon trainin..e 24 one was extremely wierd..i think its move no. 20??theres still super imba move which will kill all e enemies in 1 shot with just a swing of e jo..haha..sry for e wierd imagination..i'm in a games design course..
-but cookie/bread was a bit sweet-