Yuki
snow, soundless, at the window side
I am a ghost, said the girl when we met about ｘｘｘｘ before.
When I asked for her name, "I do not have a name." was her answer.
"Since I do not have a name, I am a ghost. You are probably the same." the girl continued.
That is correct.
I am also a ghost.
If a being is able to converse with ghosts, then that being must also be a ghost.
Like I am now.
"Well then, shall we go?"
She said, and I followed.
The girl's steps were so light, she looked completely alive.
"Where will you go?" the girl asked me, as she stopped moving her feet and turned around.
"You can go anywhere. Was there a place you wanted to go to?"
I was lost in thought for a moment.
Where have I gotten to?
What is this place?
Why am I here?
As I stood still, I couldn't help but gaze into the girl's dark eyes.
"Weren't you thinking of going to ｘｘｘｘ?"
The girl had discerned my answer.
When I heard those words, I finally understood what my own role was.
Yes.
I was on my way there.
How could I forget?
For this important matter, I had a reason to live and exist.
It is something I must not forget.
"So, that's that, then."
The girl smiled happily.
I nodded, and expressed my thanks to her.
"Good bye."
The girl disappeared, leaving me by myself.
She had probably returned to her place.
And in the same way, I had to return to my place.
White things were falling from the sky.
Numerous, tiny, fluttering, aqueous crystals.
They fell to the earth and vanished.
It was one of the wonders that filled time and space.
In this world, such wonders were common.
I stood absolutely still.
The passing of time had lost its meaning.
Those wonders of bound cotton continued to fall, one after another.
This shall be my name.
And with that thought, I was a ghost no more.
Peace.
Saturday, May 30, 2009, 11:39 PM
It is now 11.39pm according to the time on my laptop. i'm doin my assignments as usual n from the corner of my eye i see the moon right outside my window. it's v pretty and bright n i can feel the peace from e surrounding.but a motorbike n a lorry just zoom past e wc highway.
i live right in from my e west coast highway, or commonly referred as the ayer rajah highway. every mornin in e past i was always woken up by e cars n bikes tat zooms past e highway so its kind of irritating.n recently there was a moron who goes n "hap hap hap hap hap hap hap---hap!" early in e mornin n always wakin me up so i can hardly get any decent sleep. e only thing i enjoy livin here is tat at night you can see a lot of lights from the shipyards right in front of e windows which is near the horizon line of my view. FYI:a horizon line is e straight line which is e furthest u can see from ur eye's point of view..yea.sometimes when e ship ppl r buildin a new ship(or so i think they r) u can see e silhouette n e vertex lines filled w lights, its a wonderful and amazing sight.to me, cuz i always walk ard my neighbourhood w/o specs, its like a huge dazzling light floating in e middle of nowhere, cuz u cant see e supports in e dark at night.
To those who keeps on sayin tat i always emo on fridays sitting in front of e bus n goin to another door on e mrts..its bcuz u ppl r too noisy. i've had enough of phone calls from home n my aunties n noise from my studios during e day n my studio mates n classmates r like shootin vulgarities at each other all e time i do not need anymore vulgarities during aiki time oso.just let me enjoy some peace outside yeah.n y all squeeze at 1 door when there r others available.
n so today i was woken up(as usual) by e stupid idiotic moron who haps every mornin..just when it finally quietens down at ard 8 my mother went to on e tv tat shows e chinese cartoon n blasted it.w/o closin my bedroom door.yea.so after tat i woke up n i went back to my primary sch's carnival w my sister n my cousins.i see few familiar faces among e teachers but recognise only 1..lol..Ms Leong!yea.she taught every single subject from eng.maths.sci.music.pe.health edu.soc stud. basically everything except for chinese.she speaks chinese i guess. n she shrunk.or i grew.lol.so we nv play any games.just had food.i got diarrhoea as usual.n had to walk a long way to e toilet.cuz e sch merged w jin tai n it enlarged n e field shrunk n they installed aircon for e hall.now tats unfair.i felt nostalgic..cuz e 6 yrs i spent there was just like ysd..hais..time passes fast when u ignore it.in fact.its going way too fast.if only i could turn back time, i would wan to go through my life once again.
well, tats all for today.ah.e moon is getting covered by e clouds.
