Yuki
snow, soundless, at the window side
I am a ghost, said the girl when we met about ｘｘｘｘ before.
When I asked for her name, "I do not have a name." was her answer.
"Since I do not have a name, I am a ghost. You are probably the same." the girl continued.
That is correct.
I am also a ghost.
If a being is able to converse with ghosts, then that being must also be a ghost.
Like I am now.
"Well then, shall we go?"
She said, and I followed.
The girl's steps were so light, she looked completely alive.
"Where will you go?" the girl asked me, as she stopped moving her feet and turned around.
"You can go anywhere. Was there a place you wanted to go to?"
I was lost in thought for a moment.
Where have I gotten to?
What is this place?
Why am I here?
As I stood still, I couldn't help but gaze into the girl's dark eyes.
"Weren't you thinking of going to ｘｘｘｘ?"
The girl had discerned my answer.
When I heard those words, I finally understood what my own role was.
Yes.
I was on my way there.
How could I forget?
For this important matter, I had a reason to live and exist.
It is something I must not forget.
"So, that's that, then."
The girl smiled happily.
I nodded, and expressed my thanks to her.
"Good bye."
The girl disappeared, leaving me by myself.
She had probably returned to her place.
And in the same way, I had to return to my place.
White things were falling from the sky.
Numerous, tiny, fluttering, aqueous crystals.
They fell to the earth and vanished.
It was one of the wonders that filled time and space.
In this world, such wonders were common.
I stood absolutely still.
The passing of time had lost its meaning.
Those wonders of bound cotton continued to fall, one after another.
This shall be my name.
And with that thought, I was a ghost no more.
Sunday, February 24, 2013, 11:16 PM
It's been long since I've felt such peace.
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Why is that so?
I like to be alone all the time.
Because when i'm alone, there isn't any need to talk.
And partly because I do not like to talk.
But despite of being alone, there's this invention called the phone that disrupts the peace.
It allows people to connect to people with the help of this small mechanical device.
And with wireless 3G 4G what have you, instant messaging apps are made possible.
And because I do not possess a data plan, i tend not to reply msgs unless there's a need to; or i do not dislike the person.
And now that i have whatsapp, certain people like to msg me a lot.
I've have already made it clear that I do not like conversations but there will be idiots[pardon me] who doesn't understand that.
But even to the extent of calling. Really.
When people says something, Listen. And Remember.
Because I'm a Sagittarius. Because I forgive but never forget. And because I'm stubborn.
*evil mode activated*
I hate to tell people off. Really. Because it gives me bad karma and partly because i'm a nice person.
But there's a limit to being how nice I m.
Do not let the other me out.
Because you never know what I'll do. And I'm being serious.
People should start taking me when i'm serious. Because i do not joke.
If i'm joking i'll tell you.
I've started making myself clear so finally people are leaving me alone[only for the time being i guess] so i can enjoy the peace i finally get.
You know why do i like to be alone?
Because when you are alone, you can do whatever you want, go wherever you like, have fun like you do not care.
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But sometimes, as I walk on the streets, i envy the couples around.
Holding hands.
Giggling together.
Kissing even.
I wonder if i'll find someone like that.
Alrighty. Monday is approaching. I have to work tomorrow. I will be receiving 4 new interns to do my wo- i mean to supervise. [just kidding]
And my mum is nagging. -sigh
I guess my peace doesn't last.
Signing off and good night,
-Lainne
P.S. I do wonder if anyone reads this blog anymore.:)
